HELP ME [08 Mar 2004|11:30pm] OMG i am going like into hysteria. I am so out of my mind that i dont care that i didnt spell that right. Bob called me from school telling me he was going to the hospital because of his appendix. I remember how mike steinmiller had to get his out and how serious it was. Well Bob called me later on telling me he didnt go because his dad is embarrissed that Bob didnt tell him that something was wrong earlier. OMG i am so upset right now.. it is 11:30 and Bob hasnt called me or nothin. I dont know what is going on why hasnt he called me. Something has to be wrong. HE calls me every night. HELP i am sitting here typing this crying. i dont want anything to be wrong with him I love Bob so much.. He is always there for me, why cant i be there for him..... help 5 comments|post comment

AHH TODAY SUCKS TOO [08 Mar 2004|12:13pm] Well I made plans to hang out with Britt and Jenn on Saturday but unfortunately i forgot i had to babysit. Well i made $45 but i still wanted to hang out with them. I feel like i havent seen them in forever. Well Yesterday was the first time i didnt see Bob on any given Sunday. Well he is supposed to be grounded but of course he goes out to hang out with his friends. YOu think that if i make an effort to see him every time i can, when i cant he will make the effort to come see me. NO he doesnt he goes OUT (even though he is grounded) and plays hockey. That is like a stab in the heart I swear it is. Well we should be getting the car back on Tuesday. OMG I CANT WAIT the only good part of my dad driving the van to work is that he fills the tank up. I feel so happy that i havent had to fill the tank up in a week. It is so great. I have saved my money because of that. :) he filled it up 3 times but i still have to be home early cuz he has to go to work. THAT SUCKS... Mertz wasnt in class today. If i would of known that i wouldnt of went to school. AHH this sucks 1 comment|post comment

Life Sucks [01 Mar 2004|08:47pm] LIfe sucks lately, everything seems to be going downhill in my family. I only have Bob to hang onto right now, he is the person who picks me up every time i talk to him. I broke down in church yesterday because everything hit me at once. Maybe i just kept myself busy so that i wouldnt have to think about what is goin on. Church made me stop and think about what is going on plus i feel vulnerable there. 2 comments|post comment

Nothing Special [27 Feb 2004|11:15pm] Nothing special happened today. I did cut school and spent the day with my baby. I miss him so much. It feels like starting Sunday i will only see him one day a week. It totally kills me, especially since his parents keep cutting down the time i can talk to him. I can only talk to him for like a half an hour and now they know about us talking at night and they are mad. I cant deal with it anymore, It hurts so bad.. I dont know what to do. I need him and it hurts when i cant talk to him. I am sad when i cant talk to him. Life lately is not going my way. I stole this from Rachel *random-ness* 1.] Spell out your name with Music Stars: [M] adonna [A] guilera, Christina [L] FO [L] achey, Nick [O] -Town [R] oss, Diana [Y] Yankovic, Weird Al [D] estiny's Child [E] vanessance [G] oo Goo Dolls [O] zzy Osbourne [N] SYNC [I] mbruglia, Natalie [S] pears, Britney [H] ANSON (of course like there was a doubt about that) 2.] Have you ever had a song written about you? Bob wrote one for me 3.] What song makes you cry? This I swear - Nick Lachey 4.] What song makes you happy? Miss Independent - Kelly Clarkson 5.] What do you like to listen to before bed? Christina Aguilera - The Voice Within 6.] Height? 5’1” 7.] Hair Color? Dark Blonde 8.] Eye Color? Blue 9.] Piercings? Ears 10.] Tattoos? None 11.] What color pants are you wearing? Baby Blue Pants 12.] What song are you listening to right now? Something on the movie Maid in Manhattan when she goes into the dinner 13.] What taste is in your mouth? Thin mint girl scout cookies 14.] What’s the weather like? COLD I WANT IT TO GET WARM 15.] How are you? Sad 16.] Get motion sickness? no 17.] Have a bad habit? Biting my Nails. 18.] Get along with your parents? Sometimes 19.] Like to drive? YES *favorites* 20.] TV Show? Newly Weds 21.] Shampoo and Conditioner? White Rain 22.] Book? The Lord of the Rings 23.] Magazine? Teen 24.] Non-Alcoholic Drink? PEPSI 25.] Thing to do on the Weekend? I have a life on the weekend??? I work and go to my boyfriends so i would say going to Bobs house 26.] Band/Group/Singer? HANSON DUH!! *have you ever…* 27.] …broken the law? Yes 28.] …run away from home? Yes 29.] …snuck out of the house? of course 30.] …gone skinny-dipping? Yes summer 2000 31.] …made prank phone calls? lol need you ask 32.] …tipped over a porta-potty? no havent done that yet 33.] …used your parents’ credit card before? yes but mom said i could 34.] …skipped school before? Yes 35.] …fallen asleep in the bath/tub? no 36.] …been in a school play? when i was in elememtry school 37.] …let a friend cry on your shoulder? quite a few *more random-ness* 38.] Boyfriend? Bob 39.] Girlfriend? Shanna 40.] Sexuality? Straight 41.] Children? none yet 42.] Current Crush umm bob 43.] Have you ever been in love? Yes 44.] Have you ever had a hard time getting over somebody? yea 45.] Your greatest regret? Charlie need i say more 46.] Have you ever gone out with someone you’d only known for 3 days? i dont think so 47.] Do you have a job? Club Julian 48.] What does your CD player have in it right now? Christina Aguilera- Stripped 49.] If you were a crayon, what color would you be? YELLOW 50.] What makes you happy? Bob 51.] Who makes you happiest? Bob 52.] What’s the next CD you’re gonna get? Jessica Simpson or Hansons new CD 53.] Who do you consider good friends? Bob, Shan, Mandy, Britt 54.] What do you like to do? Sleep 55.] When was the last time you cried? Umm 5 minutes ago 56.] When was the last time you got a real letter? long time 57.] When was the last time you got an e-mail? Today 58.] What was the last thing you purchased? Food 59.] When/what was the last TV program you watched? The Nanny 60.] When/what was the last movie you saw at the theater? Passion of the Christ *friends* 61.] Best? Bob, Shan, Mandy, Brit F 62.] Funniest? umm Serge at RMU he is so funny, So is Beats 63.] Hottest? BOB!!! 64.] Smartest? Erin 65.] Most loyal? All my friends are loyal 66.] Shortest? Brittany Spencer 67.] Tallest? umm my buddy Dave 68.] Buffest? Bob is buff and sexy as F*** 69.] Most caring? See #63 70.] Most inside jokes? Mandy 71.] Miss the most? All my friends and the Sue Murray Staff 72.] Most in common? Dunno 73.] Best laugh? Bob 74.] Most obnoxious? Dunno 75.] Favorite quote/lyric? "i know you love me and i know you love baseball, but i know you love me more. The thing is, baseball is only a part of your life. A part of you life you wont play for long. I will be here forever " -Me 2 comments|post comment

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